02/28/10 / 
023i am going through a huge creative block at the moment. i can't sketch anything, or create any new layouts or desktop images. my mind is failing me, it makes me sad.. it also makes me second guess my decision for going back to school into graphic design.. if i'm have such a huge block, is this really the career for me? :/
i have been so drugged this past week. last week i got a really really bad migraine that lasted for a solid week. it was horrible. i went to the ER and was on the phone a lot with my doctor who kept prescribing me different, stronger pills than my regular ones.. none which worked. it was hell. i missed 5 days of work.. *sigh* finally, she found a pill that worked, cept it leaves me feeling extreamly exhausted/drained/weak/dizzy and sometimes sick. oh the joys of medicine.. lol. today is thankfully my last day on it though, and the migraine is gone, so yay!
i still have not gone snowboarding yet, and tomorrow is the first day of march! argh.. time's running out. not cool! the doctor in the ER last week told me that i need to stay off my knee for another week.. oh, i forgot to mention, i hurt my knee on january first and got water in it, lovely right? not bad enough to need it to be drained, just bad enough that doctors don't want me snowboarding on it..
2010 sucks!
-ctvolympics.
♥ lawr
01/16/10 /
022okay seriously, what is with all the freaken snake dreams lately!?
i secretly blame kira. maybe if she didn't bring me to that guys house in vancouver, where he had a pet snake in his room.. i wouldn't be haunted by them! ..mind you, i never saw the snake, and just caught a glimpse of the aquarium that it lived in, but still! NOT COOL. *glare*
speaking of kira and vancouver.. that was a fun week. minus the shitty train and plane rides. but let's not go there. there could have been a bit more drinking invovled in the trip, but it was fun nonetheless. still kinda wished we went sledding and to the mountains though.. grr. next time!
i need to go snowboarding soon.. judy is being evil and making me wait until fenruary though, so far away, makes me sad :(
this site is pathetic, i don't know what to do with it, and i barely use it. i keep thinking if i change the layout/graphic it might make me care about it more, but.. i don't think that will work. i'm too damn lazy, i think that's what the problem is. oops.
k, i'm gunna go fuck around and do nothing for a bit, and then play my videogames. adios !
-tv.
♥ lawr
12/05/09 /
021HELLO!
i completly forgot about my site during november, sorry :x was reeeeally busy!
i got a new partner at work, she is awesome and we work great together :) i'm finally happy at work again, yay!
only bad thing with my job is that i work with disease monkeyes, aka kids. meaning, they're sick all the time which leads to me being sick all the time! baaah!
i'm debating getting the H1N1 shot but iuno.. i dispise needles.. they terrify me, and i saw how they do it......... they punch you in the arm with it, ouch!!
so, what's new and interesting in my life..
halloween was awesome. i had a party and it went well, went to a bar afterwards and that was also fun. cleaning up the next day however, not fun! also, my cat disapeared! she got out at some point during the party (dunno how) and ran away :( she's never been outside before this. that was not cool! it took 2 weeks and 2 days before she came home. was really stressfull. i didn't think i'd ever see her again and i had pretty much lost hope. but she came back! and believe it or not, she's perfectly fine and doesn't care to go outside again. yay!
another thing that happened in november, i bought a laptop. it's pretty. it looks like this. it's windows7 and works pretty well.
for new years eve jen and i are going to VANCOUVER to go visit kiki! the plane tickets are already booked, and it's going to be an awesome trip. i'm excited.
23 more days!!
-carrie underwood - cowboy cassonova
♥ lawr
10/15/09 /
020i'm just waiting for this week to be over.
the past 2 weeks at work have been really stressfull and exhausting. i'm tired of being the one who does EVERYTHING. tomorrow is my partner's last day, and then i get a new one. hopefully the new girl will work out. my class needs structure and stability. it also needs a teacher other than me that cares about them and doesn't complain all day. i tried to make it work, and i tried to be nice to her and make things easy for her, but i get shit all in return. i'm glad she's leaving. maybe at her new job she'll realize that she does have to do some work, and if she thought people were "tattletailing" on her.. maybe it was her guilty conscience telling her she's fucking up.. again, and that no one is actually tattletailing.. childish and pathetic. yes.
a cd i made for my class is missing.. that's not cool.
one more day.. one more day.......
- - nothing
♥ lawr
08/22/09 /
019camping last weekend was a lot of fun, pictures can be viewed here.
there was lots of drinking (of course) and lots of beach time. it was fun hanging out with min and jen, and everyone else :)
hopefully it can become a yearly thing.. i wouldn't mind going again before the end of the season though. who knows.
work is really stressfull these past few weeks, i don't know how i'm doing it. everyone keeps asking me how i can keep going into class every day with a smile on my face, and i'm just like "i have a really good poker face..". and it's true, cuz in my head i'm throwing things and swearing most of the day. heh. but whatever, two more weeks and then i have a week off for my cruise, thank god!!!
i'm still listening to kings of leon, they seem to be my summer band this year.
they're playing here in september and i think i'd really like to go see them, they're a pretty awesome band, and it'd be fun. we'll see....
i am so exhausted. i'm gunna go read LAMB and then sleep. i'm going to my cousin's tomorrow for a party. good times!
kings of leon - use somebody
♥ lawr
08/09/09 /
018hallos!
the cottage last weekend was a lot of fun, it was ncie hanging out with my cousins. got a lot of sun in and did some tubbing and boating. good times were had by all :)
this coming weekend i'm going camping.. i'm really looking forward to it, and hopefully we will get good weather. ahhhh, camping. so much fun! hehehe.
i've been listening to a lot of kings of leon lately.. they're pretty good stuff, nothing new but.. yea, check them out. and while you're at it.. check out little boots also :)
kings of leon - i want you
♥ lawr
07/25/09 /
017is it august yet??
august is gunna be good.. weekend at a cottage, then a weekend of camping, yay! i'm excited about camping, i haven't gone since i went with jen a few years ago.. she's coming on this one too, so yay! :D
work is finally getting better.. they hired a partner for me (about time!) so my class is finally getting more settled into a routine, etc. sooo much less stressfull now! and i like the new girl, we work well together so far :)
went to a just for laughs show last night with kristina, michelle and eric. it was fun.
not too much else to write about.
RHCP - snow
♥ lawr
07/15/09 /
016hai, i'm alive.
work is busy, i'm busy .. this site is not one of my priorities.
going camping next month, should be good times.
erm.. big brother started, so i'm busy watching that. it's good times.
i have nothing to talk about.. after having this layout made and ready since april, i finally got around to uploading and coding it. i'm awesome, right?
kira gets major credit though, i was too lazy to play around with the image so made her do it.
ian got deployed to kuwait, i need to send him his carepackage soon.. he might kick my ass if i don't.
it's july.. where's my sunny weather?!
lily allen - fuck you
♥ lawr
04/03/09 /
015once a month posting seems to be my thing.
new post, new layout. why not :P
so the stuff i wanted to update about last month is now old news.. oops. but if you somehow missed out, what's been going on is i found a new job. i quit my last one about 2 weeks ago now. i found a new daycare which is a 10min walk from my house.. and pays a nice chunk more. so that's some good stuff. i'm looking forward to working there, i start soon. same age group also (3-4yr olds), so that's good.
been hanging out with my cousin lately, it's been fun. went shopping today and sprent a bunch of money that i didn't even have.. it's time to hide the visa.
seriously.. i have to start saving for my vacation in september! gah.. 6 months away! so far :( :(
snowboarding season is over.. sad. i only got to go once. oh well.. there's always next winter!
yea, i don't have much to say this month. maybe next month!! hah.
imogen heap - headlock
♥ lawr
03/01/09 /
015another new month, another new image. oops.
so much for updating a lot in february! oh well, whatever.
st.patrick's day is in 2 weeks! fun times, parade this year is the weekend after. dunno if i'm gunna go this year or not, we'll see.
i have yet to try green beer.. maybe this will be the year for that. haha.
i had really bad bronchitis last week and missed the entire week of work, my paycheck is gunna suck :(
there's some stuff that i wanna write about and update on but.. i can't yet. soon though..
i promise that when i can, i will update this site with that news ASAP!
don't be too excited though.. it's really not that exciting :x
sublime - jailhouse
♥ lawr
02/07/09 /
014new month, new layout.. or in this case, image. i didn't actually change the layout. i'm too lazy. :P
so i'm finally healthy again, but for how long.. who knows. *knocks on wood*
work wasn't too bad this week, i got to work with my friend, michelle. my regular coworker that i usually work with was sick.. such a shame.. *cough*notreally*cough*
i've only gone snowboarding once this winter.. that makes me sad. maybe i'll go tonight.. or next weekend. will have to talk to judy and see when she can go.
i got a "new phone" yesterday. i like to call it my fake new phone. it's the exact same model as my last one, and the one before that. i had no choice though, i'm apparently only allowed a new phone in april.. and i'll only get $50 off. stupid contracts! grr.
but anyway, my advice is; DO NOT GET ANY PHONE THAT HAS WINDOWS!! suuuch crappy phones! seriously, you will regret it. stay away from them!
in april i plan on getting a blackberry. i have motorola q right now and i reeeally dispise it. bah!!
that's all.
the sounds - painted by numbers
♥ lawr
01/22/09 /
014i'm too tired and non awake to even be thinking about posting write now.. and i only have 6minutes until i need to leave for work.. but ♥ min was complaining that people (me?) don't update much anymore so i felt the need to prove her wrong.. and update!
so what's new with me.. i'm back on codeine again because i got an insane cough going on thats bruised my ribs!! yea.. i have the best luck this winter, i know right? i was home all week until yesterday, but i didn't last all day and ended up going home early. didn't take the pills cuz i didn't want to be drugged at work, lol.
today i'm working 9-12pm with full days pay, so sweet! i'm debating taking my codeine to see if i can work while on it.. gunna stop and get a coffee before work though. mmmm, coffee..
alright, i really gotta get going. i hope you're happy now ♥ min!
fat freddy's drop - for the love of music
♥ lawr
01/10/09 /
013first week back at work was helllll! i got a bunch of new kids in my class and everything is crazy. there's also 3 new teachers, and a new student teacher. i missed my bed a lot this week.. haha. hopefully soon things will get a bit more organized and under control, and then i won't be so cranky or stressed out with work.. fingers crossed.
snowboarding last weekend was fun, it ended up being just me and judy. only had about 5 falls, only one was "bad". crazy judy came speeding at me from behind and bashed into me and i went flying.. hahaha, i got a pretty awesome bruise to remember her murder attempt ;)
i wanna go again.. but i don't drive, and judy doesn't always have the car.. and not a lot of my friends board, boo!
tomorrow i'm going to my baby cousin's birthday party.. i can't believe he's already 4! kids grow up really fast.
pennywise - knocked down
♥ lawr
01/02/09 /
012HAPPY NEW YEAR!
i survived my surgery, but only just barely! haha.
it was honestly pretty bad, i never expected to be in SO MUCH pain! wow.
the surgery itself wasn't bad, cuz really.. all i had to do was sleep! hehe. but when i woke up, that's when hell started, and last for a good 2 weeks. i couldn't talk until 3 days after my surgery, and in 8 days i lost 20lbs. i only started eating real foods on christmas night. crazy stuff eh?
anyway, i'm better now (well, pretty much anyway) and going back to wokr on monday.. sigh. i miss making money though, and i guess 3 weeks off was pretty good, so i shouldn't reeeeally complain!
christmas was good, but i'm sure no one cares to know what i got.. but what i WILL be getting is a wii soon! the damn things are SOLD OUT everywhere so i have to wait :(
tomorrow i'm going snowboarding (finally) for the first time this winter/year. i'm excited, it's going to be fun!
that's about it.
i'm gunna try and update this more often now that i'm better.
oh, ps. if you click the song i'm listening to (below this line) it sends you to a site where you can listen to it also. how awesome am i, right? ;)
muse - supermassive black hole
♥ lawr
011/30/08 /
01110 days until my surgery :o, i can't wait to have it over with.
this weekend i got a chunk of my christmas shopping done, and i bought myself some presents too.. haha. i got a snowboard, and some winter boots for work. so my visa and wallet are hurting a bit. haha.
next weekend i plan on finally seeing twilight and doing some shopping in the states. i plan on having all my christmas shopping done by next weekend, seeing how it's my last weekend before the surgery. wish me luck!
i'm hoping this week goes by fast, cuz this past one went insanly slow. i have my pre-opt sometime this week, so that means my work week is cut down to 4 days instead of 5, which isn't too bad.. except on my paycheck. argh.
sublime - seed
♥ lawr
011/26/08 /
010i had my ENT appointment today.. it was quick and easy. the doctor was really nice and made me feel comfortable, so that's good. he wants my tonsils to be removed, so his secretary got the papers out and had me sign a bunch of things. i'm going to be under anesthesia and will be off work for 2 weeks. i'll get to eat tons of icecream and jello. how exciting.. the surgery is in 2 weeks, i'm pretty damn nervous. :\ but it's better than being sick all the time.
pagoda - fetus
♥ lawr
011/24/08 /
009i'm so completly exhausted right now, of course i'm sick again. this really shouldn't be a surprise to anyone, haha. i have a cold and i'm all sore and stuffy. it's craptacular. i took buckley's daytime cold pills this morning and they made me reaaally drowsy all day. bleh. i'm totaly going to eat some soup in about 10min, and be in bed within the next hour or so.. and yea, it's only 6:43pm right now, lol. oh well. i'm so sick of being sick that i am willing to go to bed insanly early to feel better. sleeping pills here i come!
incubus - drive
♥ lawr
011/22/08 /
008being back at work this week (except tuesday cuz i was sick, again), i was busy and exhausted, and didn't even think about updating this. the week was long, but short at the same time. my job is starting to feel more like routine than fulfilling. i miss looking forward to going to work, and being in a good mood all the time. i was looking around online this afternoon for some art schools that look interesting, but i didn't find anything good in montreal, which was disapointing. annoyingly, the two schools that did interest me are in bc. argh! but i'm not in any hurry to go back to school.. i have to save for my double cruise in september and pay off my visa. so maybe next year i'll have some time to start saving for school, we'll see. a lot can change in a year.
i finished reading breaking dawn today, which is the last book in the twilight series, i'm a bit sad now.. cuz now what will i read? hahaha. oh well.. i'm gunna go see the movie maybe next weekend, or the week after. i have a feeling i'm not going to like it :(
anyway.. i must go shower now, i have to be up early tomorrow morning for breakfast, and shopping.
blind melon - the pusher
♥ lawr
011/13/08 /
007today is day 1 out 3, from my days of hell.
i had my doctor's appointment today, and she told me i had to call my hospital and make an appointment to see an ENT. she wants my tonsils removed. *sigh* so i called, and i have an appointment on the 26th, 2 weeks from now.. and then who knows how much longer i'll have to wait after that for the surgery.. IF they even decide to give me one.
patience + me, do not work well together.
i just want this all to be over already :(
i'm gunna get back to my book (new moon) and ignore the world for a bit so i don't have to think anymore.. :\
♥ lawr
011/12/08 /
006on the inside i am screaming.
everytime i swallow i'm met with searing pain. it feels like i'm swallowing shards of glass. i don't remember tonsilitis hurting this much. :\ i'm seeing my doctor tomorrow, i was finally able to get her secretary to squeeze me in. my right side is far worse than the left, so much that if i turn to look left, you can see the hard bump of swelling on the right side of my throat.. it's gross, and it makes my neck and head hurt :(
my appetite is completly gone because the thought of swallowing anything doesn't appeal to me in the least. bah. i really hate being sick, i don't deal well with it.
on a brighter note, the mailman delivered my books today, so i now have the last 3 books of twilight, yay! i'm already half way done the second book already.. haha
i'm gunna go back to my pillows and duvet that i left upstairs on the couch infront of the tv.
ps. apparently my comments are hard to find.. they're beside the date, all you gotta do is click :P
♥ lawr
011/10/08 /
005i'm really getting tired of always being sick. the disease monkeys have got to leave me alone!
my whole body (my right shoulder the most) is insanely sore, i feel like i was run over by a truck multiple times, and the glass from the windows flew into my throat. damn tonsils. this might be the year i have them taken out, who knows. ugh. i feel like crap.
i might be going to see the changeling this week, i think right now it really depends how i feel. and weither i'm a nerd or not, i plan on seeing twilight soon too. i read the first book and i really liked it.. i'm waiting for the next 3 to come.. i ordered them online from double day, they should be here this week or early next. yay!
yesterday i bought Dexter seasons 1 and 2, and sims2 double deluxe, haha. i made my mom buy season 2 of heroes also. good times.
anyway.. it's time to go make friends with my bed.
♥ lawr
011/07/08 /
004this post probably shouldn't exsist incase the wrong eyes read it, but in keeping with trying to be zen, it needs to be writen.
i am really getting tired of people being immature. i thought the days of choosing sides with mutual friends was over. i thought pettyness and cattyness was something people grew out of. i didn't know that you could be slapped in the face multiple times by people you cared about, and thought cared about you. such small things shouldn't be blown out of porportion. i can barely understand choices people make, and why things have happened. it really hurts. in the end, i realize who my true friends and family are.. and i'm surprised, i'm surprised that i was wrong about so many. i really don't recognize a lot of people anymore. it's sad.
♥ lawr
011/07/08 /
003again i'm writing in the morning.. uh oh.
but first things first, happy birthday min! :)
it's friday, i'm so happy that it's friday. yesterday morning when i was walking to work it was so foggy out, it looked crazy. i really wish i had my camera with me, i could have gotten some really awesome pictures, i had my camphone though, but the quality is pretty shitty.
i have an archnemesis at work, he is 2 years old and out to get me :| every day from 530-6 he's in my class until his dad comes to pick him up. and every day he gives me hell and makes me run after him. yesterday for instance, as soon as he saw me coming down the hall to put away the tv, he ran out of the class and went to hide! (lucky for me, he hides in the same place, every day.. so i know where to get him right away) then he sticks out his arms to say "pick me up, hug me!" and he smiles, this cute little devil smile.. so of course i do it, cuz usually when he's in my arms, he can't do any damage or run away. yesterday though, he simply looked at me, grinned and then bashed his head onto my cheek!! omg.. it hurt so bad, instand headache. then later, i don't know what he did exactly, but he bashed my knee and that hurt like a bitch too.. sigh. but apparently i'm his favourite and he loves me most.. okay?:S
wish me luck this afternoon with him.
♥ lawr
011/06/08 /
002i wish it was friday.. or really, saturday. if it was saturday i would still be in my bed asleep, warm, and comfy. but nope, it's thursday, and i have 15min to get dressed and ready to go to work. I'M SO TIRED. i barely slept last night, but atleast carmabitch isn't going to be there, so that makes me feel better.. and more zen ;). haha. i'm such a complainer in the morning, i really shouldn't open this file up before work. it's dangerous.
i need to go to the bank tonight and cash my paycheck from last week.. and do groceries. last groceries i bought chocolate lucky charms, they were pretty damn good.. but not good enough to buy them for a 2nd time in a row. maybe i'll get some honey nut cheerios, i never get sick of those.. or reese puffs, mmm.. so good..
alright, i seriously should go get ready. kira wants me to host her on here.. so you can expect to see her back soon, we're gunna make this cool again, you'll see ;)
♥ lawr
011/05/08 /
001well, it's official. my site is back. the stupid people who bought my domain to put dumb ads on finally stopped renewing and i was able to buy back it back :)
i'm probably going to use it the same way i always did, to ramble on about nothing and everything. i'm supposed to be more zen according to my doctor, so i'm thinking if i rant and complain on here that could help.. just maybe ;) who knows.
otherwise, i'm not sure if i'm going to be putting up content or anything. there will not be a cam, because i think that's gay and well, outgrown.
so.. welcome back to me and my domain after a 2yr hiatus, woot!
♥ lawr
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